Rough Weekend

Rough Weekend

This weekend is not going that well. I don’t feel well, and I’m not eating right. I have also had some tough back pain. And in general, I feel like crap.

I don’t feel like doing anything, especially working out. The main problem is I’m still having trouble sleeping, as evidenced by this 1:58 A.M. post. This has been going on for more than a year. I don’t know how it started, and I haven’t had any luck reversing it.

Being awake at night sucks. There is nothing to do. Everything I want to be doing takes place during the day.

Of course, I will fight to stay awake the whole day once the sun rises. Sometimes I can do it, but, most times I can not. And sometimes, even if I do manage to stay awake, I still don’t sleep the following night. This leads to the types days I have experienced this weekend. After so many days awake I experience pain,  mostly in my lower back, because I’m so tired.

I’m really tired. This has made it difficult to continue my quest for health and fitness. I don’t know what to do.


Day 4 – Awake in the Morning

It is 08:50. I actually woke up at 08:30 this morning. I think I got to bed at around 01:30. I was snacking and drinking wine most of the night. Yes, I need to discipline myself and get control of my eating. I am out of control. I was eating toast, slices of ham (deli meat), and little pieces of blue cheese, and I think I had a bowl of cereal.

I am probably going to have a bowl of either cereal or hot oatmeal. I will probably have several cups of coffee. But first I will be on the total gym, because I did not do it last night like I planned. It’s just squats and a few sit-ups. Well I will go and get started.