So Fat It Hurts

I have not been able to get myself under control. I am absolutely eating all of the wrong things, and eating a lot of it.

I started walking but it has not been on a regularly basis. It hurts my back to stand. It hurts more when I walk. It hurts even more the next day. I’m not talking about being sore. It is the kind of pain that comes from injury. Being the fat does not help. I’m so fat it hurts.

It has progressively gotten worse since my back surgery in 2010. It will not stop me though. Sometimes the pain is great. Sometimes the pain is none existent.

It is not only my back, but when my neck gets out of whack it causes my shoulders to hurt, and my fingers start to go numb.

Yes I need to see a doctor about it, but I don’t think there is anything they will be able to do about it. So, I will keep trying. I have to get my eating under some sort of control. Its just so easy to eat whatever, or to just stop at McDonalds. Eating the right things takes so much more effort. I don’t care what anybody says. Its not that easy!

My next door neighbor dropped dead of a heart attack yesterday. Granted, he was about 10 years older than me, but, he was a very active man. It was surprising.

Anyway, this week I want to try to change, little by little, the things I eat, and try to walk  a little more.



  1. Hey Tony…..It definitely is a process! Don’t look at the long road ahead but just today only!! I too have a lot of pain daily due to a fall 14 years ago but I just take it one day at a time and limit how much I do everyday. I do 10 mins of walking on the treadmill in the morning, 10 mins in the afternoon and 10 mins at night if I do it all at once I live with pain all the next day. I stretch and do yoga which helps with the pain a lot and believe me yoga helps with weight loss too cause you have to do a lot of deep breathing. All that jumping, cardio and hours of moving is not for everyone and shorter interval exercises are the key to weight loss and feeling good. Paul did the 3 day Military Diet to get a jump start and lost 9 lbs and now we both are on the “Choose to Lose” carb cycling plan by Chris Powell and I’ve lost 12 lbs in 5 weeks. Carb cycle every other day and one day a week is a cheat day. We also use, which I know you do as well, the My Fitness Pal, and track our calories. Tony do it for your health and to feel better about yourself not for any other reason. However if you are happy with yourself and how you look and feel then stop beating yourself up about it. No one can make you feel bad about yourself but you! The more you get down on yourself and worry and stress the more inflammation you will cause in your body, the more your cortisol will go up and the more fat you will retain around your stomach. So chill, take one day at a time, eat clean every 3 hours to keep that furnace burning, drink lots of water, exercise without over stressing/taxing your body and remember you are loved! I think you are an awesome guy and all that you have accomplished in your life. You have a lot to be thankful for and if you think you need to clean house then get it done! I’ll be praying for you! Mom Brundage

  2. shit. your neighbor was your wake up call i hope. please take a look at this medical lecture just to see where you’re heading AND WHAT YOU CAN DO ABOUT IT:

    at this age, you must to use your wisdom to find health – you’re feeding your emotional self and it’s taking more than it’s giving. it’s a food addiction. if everything hurts i would start with swimming. if you don’t know how to swim it’ll be perfect for you to take some classes.

    btw, it’s mark biddy.

    i love ya man – please don’t hasten your exit:-(

    1. Thanks Mark. I CAN swim, but I can’t because of an apparent shoulder injury on both sides. I have begun walking again, and am working hard on putting the right thing into my body.

      I love you and am move by your concern. I don’t plan on leaving this earth before my time. Especially before we get a chance to hang again.

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