Well, I guess I really do have degenerative disc disease. No matter how I try to continue functioning, as if nothing is wrong with me, I cannot deny this pain. My neck, upper back, lower back, and sometimes even my hips are the source of more pain than I can stand sometimes.
I still take a minimal amount of medication because I believe that some of the stuff doctors prescribe will dramatically shorten life. So I spend a lot of time in pain. It is looking more and more like the only exercise I can manage is walking, which is not always an option.
When I’m in pain, I tend to get depressed. And when I get depressed good eating habits falter. Before you know it, I have momentum going in the wrong direction, and that’s where I am now.
I am trying to get back on track. Eating the right stuff is what I did for most of this year. I was doing well. I was down nearly 40 pounds. I have probably gained about 10 in the last 2 months. I won’t be giving up, ever.
Sometimes I think when people read these post they get the impression that I am in a worse place than I really am. I’m okay. I have a lot of bad days, but, I also have a lot of good days. So, don’t worry. I’m not suicidal. I’m in this fight for the long haul. I will live every bit of life I can grab ahold of.