Myself vs My Body vs Desire

I have noticed that my struggle is not only against my body’s physical hunger but, also against the desire to eat the wrong things at the wrong times.

My goal is to fast for a good portion of the day. The first hurdle to overcome is hunger. Oddly, I find it not exactly easy, but doable. I have no problem riding out a hunger wave even if it lasts a while. I can drink water, black coffee, or tea until the hunger cramps stop. Once it has passed it is over for a very long while. I can go for hours.

It seems I can win the battle over physical symptoms easily enough. However, it is a different story when it comes to simple desire.

It starts with a thought about some food I like. Then the desire to eat something, anything, is aroused. The desire to continue my fast is there, but, the desire to satisfy what I call food lust is seemingly overwhelming.

After a while, it no longer matters what I want or what my goal is. All that I can think about is eating, and then, I end up breaking my fast with something shouldn’t even be eating, or, want.

I don’t quite know what to do about it. I guess it just comes down to discipline. The things I end up eating are, of course, high in carbs and sugars. I realize it is a real addiction and I don’t know what to do.

Any suggestions out there? Fasting has been working so well for me. It’s not all about weight loss. It is the other, more important benefit, of lowering my blood glucose without having to take meds that don’t agree with me. Plus, I think the meds only make my condition worse.

I plan to continue what I am doing. Maybe it just takes continued practice and a will to not give up.


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s