I Refuse to Give Up!

The Beginning

I don’t know how I’m going to do it. Nothing that I have done in the past few years has worked. I have been to the gym, and work consistently for over 6 months. And in the end I had more pain than I did when I began.

I ended up in physical therapy for my shoulders. My lower back pain has increased, mostly because I think I overdid it in the gym; And now because I’ve gained more weight.

I’m tired of physical pain. I can’t handle anymore. My sleep is off! My body wants to be asleep during the day and awake during the night. This is causing even more problems.

I don’t know what I’m going to do, but I’m going to do something. If I don’t figure out how to get control of my body I think I’m going to die. That’s not just my inner teenage girl acting out.

Please, don’t post your suggestions in the comments section. I don’t want to hear them. I have tried them all. I will figure out what the right thing is and I will do it. You may keep watching if you wish. I don’t mind. I refuse to give up.