So, it’s a new year, a significant year for me. I will be 60 years old in March. I have made no resolutions having to do with weight loss. I have simply continued to fight my battles as usual. I am, however, working much harder to make better choices regarding what I eat. I have maintained a normal A1C for the past two to three years. However, I believe my choices of foods have kept me from losing weight.
I have made some changes, but I started long before the new year. I have maintained my A1C by only succeeding in my fasts about 75% of the time. I also ate tons of sweets like ice cream, cookies, and pie. Still, my A1C stayed below 6.0. So, intermittent fasting is a great tool to help overall health.
I guess my mind is finally made up. I think it is because I look so horrible to myself. I genuinely am morbidly obese, and it looks disgusting. My belly fat hangs lower each year that I don’t do something about it. The folds that body fat has made on my body are extremely uncomfortable. I don’t think I can take it any longer.
A little lost
How will I accomplish what I have not been able to in the past? I have no idea. I know WHAT to do, but how to DO the WHAT is the difficulty. The first thing that comes to mind is to use some discipline. Take charge of my actions and do the right thing. I know what the right thing is, but as soon as something happens that pisses me off, makes me sad, or upset me in any way, I fall back to food as a comforter or moping and coping mechanism. It is so frustrating.
With no other ideas, I have been taking charge of my actions and using discipline for the past several weeks. I have lost a few pounds, nothing substantial, in my opinion. People who don’t fast assume that fasting is starving yourself. It is not. Do some research.
I am rigidly sticking to my fasting schedule. I am still honing my diet (what I’m putting into my body). I am tempted to try a new product I have seen on the internet. It is called the Lumen Metabolism tracker. It is supposed to tell you whether your body is using fat, carbs, or sugar for fuel so that you may adjust your diet/meals accordingly. I think that would work for me, being able to adjust my meals on the fly. The only hang-up I have is the cost. It is by subscription. At this time, I am not willing to spend more money.
In summary – discouraged
I know I haven’t not been writing much here. I don’t feel I have anything worth reporting. I have been at this since 2013 and have not reached my goal (weight-loss goal). So, I may be discouraged. However, I have chosen to continue to fight for my desire to transform my body. I don’t know if I will succeed this year. I can only take it one day at a time. Sometimes I have to fight for it minute by minute.
So be it.