My Painful Body

So, I am fairly sure that my blood sugar and a1C are still normal. Well, I know that my blood sugar is normal because I check it most days. I have not checked my a1C in a while, but, I am confident that it is still within normal range.

However, I am not losing weight. Intermittent fasting doesn’t seem to be a weight-loss method for me. I don’t know what to do. I am not regaining weight though. So, that’s a good thing I guess.

My back pain continues. There are mornings when I wake up that it seems like I’m going to have problems walking. Fortunately, after I move around a bit, things get back to normal, even if walking is still painful.

I fear that one day I will end up in a wheelchair. I went on a motorcycle ride today and it was fine. Yesterday, I went on a ride and it was very painful. I will not, however, give up riding. I love riding motorcycles, and, I will ride until I can not.

I think I am relatively healthy right now (other than the back thing). Pain seems to be my only issue at that moment. I tried CBD oil and it didn’t really help. And, it is expensive as hell; about $100 an ounce. That’s too much money for something that only sort of works.

But who am I to say pain is my only issue. I could drop dead with a heart attack tomorrow. I had a younger cousin who passed away at the end of 2019 in that very way. I never even knew that he had a heart condition or problem.

I feel my life is undone. I would hate to die right now. I haven’t even figured out my life yet, let alone, be ready to leave it.

I don’t know what I can do about my pain. And I will not be agreeing to anymore surgeries on my spine. I think this is how it all got started. Some surgeon who thought he could help my original pain. After the surgery, I was never the same. Then I had another surgery. Same result.

I’m not a fan of spinal surgery. If it is something you can avoid or do without, do so.

Anyway, I hope you all had a great weekend.


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